The Fraudulent Writer | Prose | 22 Blog Series

There’s nothing worse than feeling like a fraud. Telling people you’re something, an ideal, that you haven’t been in a very long time.

I am a writer.

Lies, all lies. Haven’t been one of those for months now. And months, inside the head of a strangled creative, is a lifetime when you can’t express yourself. Everything comes out harsh and dramatic and whiny. You and the keyboard aren’t talking anymore. You can’t bring yourself to open your manuscript and stare at words a past version of you typed and labored and loved.

The world is in a funk, that grey mess of a cloud; your brain turning to soup. Like an addict, your cells are dying the longer you pretend to live a normal life. That 9-5er day in day out dragging you down into the mundane abyss of the working age. Any attempt to take yourself back to your own personal Renaissance ends in a self-hating war that lasts days.

Nothing happy sticks.

Not being able to get out of bed in the morning, even though there is nothing officially wrong with your life, no one understands. That sinister melancholy clutching onto your skin like a cheap shower gel that won’t wash off. No amount of scrubbing or crying or screaming is going to get that melancholy off.

Not until you get the fuck out of your own head. GET OUT! Stop being a liar, a fraud claiming to be creative! Stop being the one that can’t see past the cloud. Where’s your curiosity? Run through the fog, arms flailing, singing along to stupid songs that make you want to dance.

You always want to write when you’re happy. And that boy is making you happy. You’re just being stubborn. So stop being a misog. Go and fucking write.

 

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Happy Anniversary, Blog!

I have just happily notified by the lovely auto-timer on WordPress, that this blog has been up and running for TWO YEARS!

Two years of babbling on at all of you, and I must say – we are doing pretty well as a blog.

 

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2015: The Year Of The Author

2015 is not only the year of the Sheep (if you’re into all that Zodiac jazz) but it’s also the year of the author! Why? Because we’re going to make it so!

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I am taking 2015 to become the author I always wanted to be, and once May rolls around I will be an official graduate in Creative and Professional Writing (BA Hons) which means I’ll be ready for some of my biggest projects yet! I have two big projects on the go in 2015 instead of several small ones, so I’m going to give you the inside scoop of what’s happening in Mel’s Year of the Author:

THE GODS PROJECT

If you’ve been following my blogs, then you’ll know I am using a base story from AFTER US to write my next novel: THE GODS PROJECT. It’s still in the baby stages of planning, and I will be taking a lot of time to really research and plan this project, (because it’s all about space and science…I have no idea what I’m doing…) so it may end up being published in 2016 instead (depends on how my personal and work life pans out!). But I promise I will be keeping you updated over the course of the year so keep an eye out for more info!

STEPPING STONES 

This is a collaborative project that will involve 10 authors, 10 themes, and a whole lot of love. It will include writers old and new, and some completely unknown! This project really is a labour of love, and is part of my way of giving back to the writing community. It’s still in the early stages (I still don’t have 10 confirmed authors) but I can confirm that Jacob Shelley is involved closely with the project, as are some of the AFTER US authors.

#INDIEBOOKSBESEEN

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You all know that I’ve been working closely with #IndieBooksBeSeen and Mark Shaw to help create a bigger and better world for indie authors. But did you know that they’re expanding in 2015? Oh yes! They’ve got treasure hunts, booktubers, book teasers, and I LOVE INDIEBOOKS coming soon!

Check out the video below to find out more: 

Do you have any projects in the works? Let me know in the comments. Seriously – I’m interested. 🙂